Grandma

sometimes i REALLY don't understand my beloved Ah Ma...

today i came home, was able to enter the toilet for a shower only to smell this totally UNBEARABLE stench. then i saw the cabinets opened up, drawers emptied.

went downstairs and asked whats that smell. only to realise my Ah Ma used some stuff to "paint" all over the cabinets to prevent it from chipping off. seriously, everything looks damn look, they ARE pretty new in fact and there isn't a need to go through sucha hassle.

she already coping with a pair of extremely weak legs, but she just can't seem to sit still, enjoy life, let her love ones serve her.. even if she have to "paint" that liquid thing over the cabinets.. theres my maid, my mom, my dad, my brothers, myself!

now that i'm in my room, she took out some other drawers, dragged it into my room and started painting AGAIN. den, guess what? she accidentally pour that liquid over her head.. now its stained all over her hair..

she went to the toilet, wanted to bend forward to wash her hair. instead, she drenched herself. she doesn't wanna wear a new piece of clothing, now wrapped in towel.. shivering away.. waiting for her pyjamas to dry.....

*shakes head*

is there a need to? is there really a need to?

i know she is doing all these for us. like paint the stuff and all. BUT the problem is! to me, if its spolit, somethings are just necessary to change. some money u jus have to spend.. can't be thrifty towards everything isn't it?! whats more, the cabinets are like perfectly fine!

i dunno why im sooooooooooooooooo damnnnn frustrated over what she's doing.
its like you see her breathe so heavily as she drags the drawers..
sigh. why does she always like to make life difficult for herself???

yet i don't wanna like ask her not to do all these, she will deem that we're taking her doings for granted...

- so difficult -

Love,
from a heartache grand-daughter :(